Holy Crap, where to begin. Life changes, what can I say? I'm in G-vegas at Starbucks on Woodruff rd. I mean, 26 months ago I was sitting in this same place writing about the fact that I was leaving for Las Vegas. Now I am where I am. So where am I? Excellent question, and while I'm glad you asked, it's tough to answer.
First off, I'm broke. I played poker for 5 months in Cherokee but I didn't work hard enough. See, I'm an emotional person. I'm very vibe oriented and I've been going through some tough times in the parts of life outside of poker and so I didn't play as much as I should have. So spending caught up with me and now I'm on the job hunt. I have a little money on stars which I'm trying to work up by 12-tabling $5.20 double or nothing SNGs, but that's about it for poker. I thought I had a gig dealing a G-vegas game but that fell apart as quickly as I got excited about it.
I do not plan to give up on poker. I proved in Cherokee over a 5 month period that I'm profitable. I think that $530 for 20-25 hours per week in a 1-2 game while buying in for only $100 at a pop is pretty damned good. I was just way too distracted to give what I needed to give to the game. I didn't put in the hours. I learned from that though and I truely believe that if I had just one more shot at it I would plug that hole and really succeed. So I guess I should explain a little about why I was so distracted and why I'm not going back to Cherokee for another shot.
I'm in love. No, seriously, I really am. Sure I had a tough year, what with the discovering of Drew and I've dealt with a lot. I've dealt with it mostly on my own even though I admit I probably should have had professional help. I'm just glad I never actually gave in to the temptation of jerking the wheel and sending my troubles off a bridge while speeding along I-40. If I didn't do it over the guilt and regret of not being with Drew for the first 16 years of her life, I'll never do it. I think that's good news. The love thing is a whole other matter. Don't get me wrong, it's a good thing that I'm in love, but there are complications and love itself is indeed a huge distraction. We'll talk more about my love a bit later.
So I've decided to pursue a career, not just a job. I have my eye on a company with which I'm very familiar. I think I could be happy working for this company and I believe my personality and prior customer service experience are a perfect match. I have begun the process of going after a job and I'll fill you in a bit later on the progress. I'm also looking to move to another town. This is gonna be a tough thing to do with no money, but I always find a way and I can't figure why this time should be any different. If I can move 2100 miles from G-vegas to real Vegas with no money, believe me, I can do this.
As far as poker goes, I'll mostly play online for now. I am trying new things and I'm looking into the future to try and visualize where poker will fit in. It will fit in, I just don't have the details at the moment. Poker will never be far from my mind though. As we speak I'm listening to news radio 840 KXNT from Las Vegas on AOL radio and I'm hearing traffic reports and that just makes me feel like I'm there.
As far as love goes, well, you know how that goes. Wish me luck!
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
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This may sound odd but I'd say you've got it together. Go for that brass ring!
ReplyDeleteWishing you the best.
Wow. I hope you truly learn from your past lessons. Not to make you feel bad about yourself, but I want to recap your financial life: You were given a tremendous opportunity to lead the life you want to live by winning a few tens of THOUSANDS of dollars in a bad beat jackpot.
ReplyDeleteI get that living life is expensive; I have 3 kids and a wife to support on my regular 9-5 day job. But if I were a single guy, there's a lot of changes I'd make to adapt to making things work if my given future career was a poker player. For starters, I'd find a roommate and cut my lifestyle costs until such time as my poker career can fully support the lifestyle I'm used to. I'd focus my life around becoming a better player; sleeping, reading, watching videos and playing. That's it - until, again, my poker career can fully support the lifestyle I'm used to.
You seem to have squandered the opportunity you were given. What a disappointment! Look: I grind it out online EVERY DAY in order to MAYBE, SOMEDAY be able to quit my 9-5 (which I DO enjoy BTW) and become a full time player. I realize with my family that I'll need a few million in the bank in order to take a shot like that. I'm hampered by my family obligations, which FAR outweigh my immediate aspirations of poker. I'll get there, though, someday - when my family is well taken care of. Focusing away from my situation, you were GIVEN the exact scenario I describe above: you had the money you needed to follow through on your aspirations, and squandered it.
If you want my advice, you don't have the discipline to lead the life of a poker player. Yes, you're good, and can generate a profit at the table. But no, you should give up on the career aspect.
Kudos for realizing that you should get a job. Stick with it and hopefully retire with enough in the bank so that you can take another shot at a poker career in like 20-30 years. Or live a minimal life with zero current familial obligations and make that 20-30 much sooner. But stop f'ing up the opportunities you're handed.
Im Happy for you man, You seem to be headed in a positive direction after a long drought. Just stay focused and keep you head up. If the job you want doesnt pan out (I hope it does) don't get discouraged. Keep looking and things will workout for you. Think of where you will be in another 26 months! It's all up to you.
ReplyDeleteGL with the job search.
ReplyDeletePoker Meister is pretty much an idiot. I did get his point about the recurring theme. I know you (TheTrooper) can make money at poker. Just do it. Focus on poker. Nothing else from TheJoker. Discipline yourself away from -ev and balance the other aspects of your life (new job, Drew) with poker. You CAN do it! I'm pulling for you.
ReplyDelete@anonymous: Pretty much an idiot? I resemble that comment; I'm a full idiot. Look; I'm not discouraging TheTrooper from playing poker. He can and is a winning player. I think he needs to develop the discipline it takes to lead a poker player's life. It doesn't seem as though he does... maybe it's a matter of current environment, or any other hundred factors, but I think it is a great choice to get a job and let poker take a back seat as a career. He took a shot - was given essentially a six month bankroll from the jackpot- it didn't work out, and so he's facing reality. Kudos for that. I hope in the future he's able to take another stab at it.
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